The end of an icon...

"In a world filled with hate, we must dare to hope i,n a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe.”

The words of Michael Jackson one of the greatest musicians of our time and now he is no more. I remember back in naija(yes mr abati..NAIJA!)....my friends and i were always singing one M.J song or the other. I had a friend in primary school Oliseh...and if i dont remember anything else about him, i remember he was always performing Michael Jackson dance moves...grabbing his crotch lol and screaming,...every naija birthday party back then always had a Michael Jackson impersonator. No other musician in recent history has been able to reach out and touch so many people the way he did, from Japan to Brazil...Michael was the KING.

When i first heard he was in the hospital...my friends and i were somewhat nonchalant...ahn ahn...is it not michael jackson...he's probably just a little sick or something, but once i heard he collapsed, i knew he was going to die. Strange it seemed, i never really thought Michael would grow old as in i never imagined i would see an old wrinkly Michael Jackson, he was always Michael of the long curly hair...mocha skin and amazing dance moves...that is the Michael i remember.

The condition he suffered from "Vitiligo" obviously affected him as well, causing the drastic change in his appearance..Heres a youtube video that shows some of the changes..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=15TSEKXXIvI&feature=related

The sad part of it is that i don't think anyone ever really understood him, with all the emotional and physical abuse he endured in his younger years, i feel like Michael was also a 15 year old boy stuck in a 50 year old body. I was watching an interview yesterday (hosted by Martin Bashir) where he talked about when his daughter Paris was born, he said he just grabbed the baby once she was born and took her home..with her body covered in placenta and blood, who does that?...it just shows that michael obviously still thought like a 15 yr old child who had just gotten a new toy and can't wait to test it out. Even when he talked about sharing his bed with little boys and having sleepovers, he didn't seem to understand what the world saw as wrong, yet again thinking like a child. Easy example of extreme regression in an older man, yet instead of trying to understand his problems...he was ridiculed and exploited till the day he died. A man who raised millions for humanitarian causes before it was cool in Hollywood to adopt children from africa and other impoverished nations around the world.

His death is yet again another piece of my childhood that is gone...

Michael was a gift to the world, talented and giving ,and his music will live forever...R.I.P

pic courtesy of time.com

The end of the road...

Taking my last college class..its bittersweet really. The past 2 weeks have provided some clarity on a lot of the things i blogged about in the past year or so, basically refocusing my ideals and hopes for the future. I have come to realise that the most important things right now are God, my family and my good friends...everything else is pure semantics and with time..all will fall in place. Meanwhile got 1 more week till i am officially done with undergrad!..taking a trip to the midwest to relax..graduate in August!! possibly a short stint in Japan..(fingers crossed) and finally venturing into the real world..and believe me the Real world is not ready for me...not one bit :)

Final Thoughts..

The end draws closer....4 years....and its almost over..yet im scared..of the unknown

p.s
Unrequited Love....it really sucks.
Seriously.
I am in love with my best friend..

i miss u guys..

A tagged sturvs! love ya Honeywell!!

my boo Honeywell tagged me like a month ago..and i finally got around to doing this...been crazy busy with school and work...plus its spring break so took a couple of days off and went outta town....had an AMAZING time!! How is everyone??? :)

Where's ur cell phone? in my ear...im talking to one of my many boos...haha

Where's ur significant other? none mehn....im a pimp yo..haven't i told you...naa seriously no significant other oo..babes are chillin, i wish i had tho...with one person in mind :)

Your hair colour?Black well sorta

Your mother? a handful but i love her to death

Your father? a cool guy..hes my father not the best one...but my father nonetheless

Your dream last night? mmmm i dunno...i think it involved john legend tho..heheh

Where were you last night? in my room...hanging with a girlfriend and talking to Poison Ivy till my phone died.
What you're not? patient....i know im trying to get better at it but people can be so infuriating.

One of your wish list items: a good job after graduation

Last thing you did? cleaned my bathroom

What are you wearing? bball shorts and a t-shirt

Your pet: none..me and animals dont have the best relationship...unless its shitsu or something...lol

Your computer? Acer..its not fancy but it works most of the time and i love it

Your mood: relaxed and chill

Something you're not wearing? jewelry

Your summer? amazing...hot..but AMAZING..

Love someone? God..hes always there for me..ALWAYS

Your favorite colour? recently...purple..i just look so good in it.

Last time you laughed? last night talking to Poison Ivy...he always makes me laugh

Last time you cried? last week..reminiscing on some stuff..it was more like a teardrop or two

Are you a bitch? not at all..just blunt and honest when need be..

Favorite pastime: listening to music and reading a really good book.

Genuine or fake: both if necessary...somethings and some people are just really boring and well you gotta do what u gotta do...

Any vices? occasional drinker..?

Pro life or wire hanger: depends honestly..

Mccain or Obama: Obama for ya mama!!

Pro-plastic or natural:
Naturallllllllllllllllllll...why would u want it any other way but how God made you

Dream job? Working for the UN or WHO..travelling all over the world :)

I tag NDQ, Raw Dawg, and you!!

Bisou xx

Happy Singles AWARENESS DAY!

February 14th...Happy Vals day people, remember to show love to all and not just your significant other. Speaking of which let me buzz my momsy..hehehehe

Sorry i have been MIA..but dont complain oo after all i am supposed to be done with blogging sef..hisss..not like anyone reads my ranting anymore..i have become quite dulling and the creative juices aren't flowing as well i think..can't say i am lacking inspiration tho..but ill get to that later..speaking of MIA..chineke did you see her at the grammys...babe was about to have her baby on stage..lol!!...i was the only one that thought it was cute tho..i just love the babe sha nothing do her!

oh and awwww thanks for the wellwishes with poison...mehn its been a crazy couple of weeks..since i am so busy during the week..we have spent every weekend together..hanging...playing videogames...drinking..(wink)..no hanky panky oo..we are just friends i think...and omg we wrestle too!..lol and the funny thing is poison ivy isnt the biggest guy..i mean hes like 6 feet but he prolly weighs around 175 or so..so hes sorta small...but men he is soooo strong..like we were wrestling and he basically picked me up and threw me on his bed..and im not a small babe oo...i just layed there like did he just pick me up...lol it was funny tho..
We've been going to the gym together too because hes like a crazy gym nut( he has the nicest arms..lol) ..and the last time we went he was showing me stuff to do and like touching my stomach and lower back and all and my friends were like.."mmmmm mmmmm"...of course me i did not care that he was tapping current infact he can have the whole fuse box!..haha kidding...but seriously..its been fun hanging out with him..and its like after the way i felt about him and he knows about it too..it could havebeen so awkward but its not at all. I was in his apartment yesterday after i got out of class and he was cleaning his room while i sat on his bed playing video games and his roomate was like awww yall are so cute...we just laughed....he gets along with my friends too although i told him they would like him better if we dated because they really want me and him to be together..he just laughed and gave me this look..(gosh i wish i could show yall through the internet..but its soooo cute)...
Anyhow sha...we have been hanging out and i never buy guys things..like seriously i dont..but i saw these shorts that had this cartoon character on them that he is absolutely in love with so i got them for him..not for VALS DAY oo..just because...and i put the shorts in a PROACTIV acne cream box..haha..just for laughs...i will probably give it to him tonight if i go to his place, and he is supposed to take me out to dinner soon as well. We are basically just really good friends and although i am supposed to be getting over him..the way things are with us i am not sure if i want to...

so its ALL STAR WEEKEND!!..woooooo...unfortunately won't be watching the games because i have tons of work to do..but mehn its VALS DAY and i refuse to be bogged down by sorrow or loneliness because Jesus has been my valentine for 20 yrs so today is no different...:)

Muah guys!!

appi nu yaaaaaa!!

Happy New Year my luvs! i know its been forever...dont hate me:)
I see everyone is kicking the year of to a good start...i miss yall a lot tho, how was christmas and new years?..i spent my break partying and hangin out with friends..it was quite fun sha. BUT its a new year and with that comes the NEW YEARS RESOLUTION!!...dum dum dum....lol
Firstly..the ever redundant..i must lose 20 pounds resolution, its my all time favorite..we'll see how long that lasts..
Secondly, is to LIVE!..enjoy each day and try to smile cuz things could always be much worse than they actually are you know..

Now to the juicy gist..but maybe you guys dont care..me i no know..but you will sha listen!!
Ok so my last post i was lamenting about my love for Poison Ivy..yes yes...i am still gaga over this boy, funny enough he is not quite beyond my reach anymore. Since school started this semester, we've hung out every night..playing games and talking with my friends..and its so funny because my friends are like "there is no way this boy does not like you", like the other night..we were drinking and talking, i was sitting next to him and he kept playing with my fingers and hands and whispering to me..and it was so funny because my friends were all like "aww so cute!"..while i was thinking "is this really happening?", it was quite surreal.
Somehow we started talking about guys and girls in the club and he was like "if some guy tried to step up to uNWritten with the wrong game..i would tell him to back the eff up because i really care about her, i would tell her anything"..my friends were like ok!!!..

Katy was like if it was nigeria she would have said i did juju on the boy, i honestly dont know what it is, but he and i are real close now, and even though he sends mixed signals i think he has some kind of feelings for me, however i am content being his friend and seeing where things go. He's even helping me with my workout plan now...cuz hes really athletic and all that. I'm already getting used to having him around and dreading the fact that he is going to DC for the inauguration so i wont see him for a week....BOO!!..

BUT..something else interesting happened
so yall remember Cutie right?
anyways he called me the other day and we were just catching up and talking so he asks me about Eve and i tell him she is fine, he then proceeds to tell me that she had asked him for my blog address the otherday because she thinks i write stuff about her, i was like really??
but he didnt know it so he couldnt give it to her, i found that so funny because of all people to ask..HIM!?..and then she knew i was talking to him on the phone so i guess she was scared he was gonna tell me about it so she kept telling me to hang up, and now changed her fb status to something about hating gossipers..lol
funny babe...i dont really care though, there is nothing in here that she doesnt already know, so she will be fine sha.

so how far with you tho?..all of you just jaboed your babe sha...only tobenna asked of me :doing a jig dance:...peace my luvs!!

The return of Poison Ivy...

I know i said i was done writing...and i really am but right now there is no other way for me to say how im feeling..
Okay so over the past couple of weeks..Poison Ivy and I have gotten reacquainted i guess you could say..we chat on fb everyday..actually have whole conversations together and always just poke fun at each other..
Tuesday and Wednesday night...we studied together at the library and i swear i havent laughed that hard in a while..like it was so unlike how things used to be between us, there was no awkward moments or nothing..he would poke me and say all this stuff about how all africans are this and that, and how i was the only african he can get along with..and i would act like i was mad and he would rub my arm and say he was just kidding..even my friends saw the sparks..
There was a point where i looked at him..like just looked at him...and i dont know i just felt like i was home..just looking at him, i know its weird...but i really really like this dude. Yall know how many posts i wrote about him in the past..how much i fantasized about him and all..and not its past that stage where i really want to see where things would go if we keep flirting and playing around.
On tuesday night, he was leaving to go home from the library and he was telling me bye but then he kinda stopped and just looked at me and smiled...and i didnt know what to say...it was like a silence so i just made a flippant remark about his hair being silky smooth and he laughed. He was supposed to come to this thing with me and some friends tonight but he didn't and i know i wanted to see him but right now typing this..i realise how disappointed i am that he did not come. How disappointed i am that i cannot tell him how badly i want to be with him.
How he is everything that i want..but everything that i cant have....

Damn you Poison Ivy!